it's ironic that my first post began with the words,

"Without any hesitation".

i read through my old xanga yesterday,

i wrote what is to be my last post.

i was shaken by how sad and self-centered i used to be.

how worldly i was,

how much i lied,

how i was so scared of being alone.

if only i had known that God was preparing a wonderful life for me.

i could never live with the joy i have now if God didn't put me through what he did.

i wish i could go back and talk to the boy that i once was,

that strange little boy,

and tell him the only person that could make him happy is Jesus.

because that is what rings true today.

Christ is my cornerstone that keeps me from falling apart

he is my sustainer.

this blog shall have new life,

whether anyone is still out there to read it or not

this is astoneinzion.

you can read my last xanga post here